Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Missing my BFF
Today marks 13 long years since I lost a very good friend. He felt the only way to solve things was to take his own life. I still wish that there was some way that I could have saved him all those years ago. I held myself responsible for quite some time. I know that even if I had stopped him he probaby would have tried again. It's a double-edged sword no matter what way I look at it. And it's been a bitter pill to swallow.
I still think of him often. No amount of time will ever change that. A song will come on the radio and I think about what life would have been like if he were still here - what might have been. It's not as bad as it used to be but it's still there and it always will be to some degree.
It still hurts like hell sometimes because I miss him so much. But I take comfort in the fact that I know that he looks in on me from time to time. No matter how much time passes,Dan,I still miss you...
I Still Miss You
by Keith Anderson
I've changed the presets in my truck
so those old songs don't sneak up
they still find me and remind me
yeah you come back that easy
try restaurants I've never been to
order new things off the menu
that I never tried cause you didn't like
two drinks in you were by my side
I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby
I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again
I dont know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
no I don't know how to do this
I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah
I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah
I still miss you
I still miss you...... yeah.... yeah.....Labels: friends
